When things don't work out just right.

Something's in life are meant to work out the right way and some aren't. I think this may be one of those things that isn't meant to work for me.

I seem to always be repeating myself but I miss my life, I miss my best friend, and I'm so over always being miserable and always feeling like I have something to prove. It's my life and i'll play it my way.

This is not for me. I don't want to always be lonely. I don't want to pine for the life I had. I just want it back. I want me poorly paying job with the shit hours and the Saturday shifts! I want my Friday and Saturdays at Paddies back. I want to just pretend I'm busy and stay at home with Pretty Little Bitch Girl.

But I don't really know if I can impose on the life she created without me. The life that her and the Pool God have built for themselves. But I can't stay here just to be miserable. I just think I need to do something for me. I need to make the decision for myself and not for someone else.

I don't want to be this person that feels sorry for them selves all the time. I want to be that person that feels sorry for other people because I am so comfortable in my own life and my skin.

Something will need to change soon because I don't want to live my life like this, I am NOT this person, I was never this person. What happened to me??



I so lonely. I'm surrounded by people but I am so so lonely. I miss our life. I miss who I used to be. But mostly I miss you. And honestly I just want it all back. I always say I don't do regrets. But this is one, and I don't want to go on in like always having this regret. Something needs to give, and I think for once I finally figured up what I need to do for me. Last time it was for something else, this time it's for me. I think it's time to seriously consider going home, and home is where every you happen to be. Lots of love The chaple street princess Xxx

I don't do regrets but... I think I made a huge mistake.

I miss you & I will never get my life back, regardless of how hard I try. I feel like I'm drowning, and there is no one here to pull me back.

I'm never included in your conversations or your private jokes. And refuse to pretend any longer that the two of you EVER include me.

Everything I say is riddeled with a sense of catastrophe have I just said something wrong or not? And from to day forward I will confront you about it.

I have no life here. I don't really think I'll ever have one here again. All I want to do all the time is go home.

Regardless of who reads this, this is one thing in my life that doesn't involve you, it doesnt matter what I wright here because if you read it what you see is not to offend you. You can't get shitty at someone for something they say that doesn't involve you.


So basically if I did regrets then I say....
I regret coming back to Melbourne.


Lots of Love
The Chaple street Princess
Xxx

I miss HAVING a best friend.

I miss my best friend......I miss HAVING a best friend.
I miss being myself.... I miss you because I don't feel like I belong here anymore. I miss you because I don't feel like I have to prove myself with you... I feel like I always have something to prove here.

I don't get your inside jokes, I don't get why it’s funny. I don't get half the things you say, and to be brutally honest..... I have no idea why I feel this way, but I know I can't go on like this...
Just because you ignore something does not make it go away.

I am not who I used to be... I lost that right and I’ll never be able to get myself back. I will never have that power ever again.

Some day’s I feel like I have made the worst decision of my life; I should have never come back. I don't belong here anymore.....

But some days like today I LOVE MY LIFE

I love my friends and I love Melbourne, but Port & Pretty Little Bitch Girl Stole my heart :D

If you treat me how I want to be treated then baby we'll get along fine, but if you continue down the path you have started buddy, you can forget ever having anything to do with me again.


Lots of Love
     The Chapel Street Princess
        Xxx