So skype is one of the most amazing things the has been invented i am exactly 2,884 km or 1 day and 11 hours from my step-mum, dad and my little brother the amazing baby sean. But i can sit on skype and talk to them as if they were only sitting across the room from me, and this has been a god send. To sit here in my room in the beautiful Far North Queensland and talk to them in cold old melbourne town. to see my little brother growing up is amazing even though i'm not there with him i can still see him and talk to him, play games with him.
So basically i miss my family, i miss just sitting with them and i miss being surrounded by them. I try not to dwell on the situation that i'm missing my little brother grow up. I miss my big brother and getting drunk with him. Helping him out, he's my partner in crime. why is it that when someone needs your help you can't be there to do it. It breaks my heart just that little bit every time i think about it. I miss my brothers. I'm missing sean grow up and I'm missing out on helping Matt to grow up. It's obvious that he can't do it by himself and that really sucks.
I miss my step-mum and talking shit with her and i miss her laughing at my lack of self control when it matters the most. I miss her cooking and i miss spending time with her, and i miss just being surrounded by people that love me unconditionally.
I miss my dad, I miss getting drunk with him, and the way he disapproves of some of my choices, and i miss lunching with him and i miss everything about the fact that i can't see him. I miss hearing about his golf buddies and i miss him talking shit. I miss you Daddy.
I miss my Grandma, i miss her telling me that my tattoos are trashy and that i should think about what I'm eating, and i miss her beautiful nature and the way she always tells me I'm her favourite and i miss her judging me and i just plain miss her.
But most of all i miss my mum. Because she's my best friend and because she's always been there for me.
I sometimes wish that she was here with me, other times i just with that i could take back coming here.
Not that i don't want to be here i love Port and i love Pretty Little Bitch Girl and all the rest but i miss my mum the most, and i sometimes i wish i could just give it all up and go home, but i won't do that. I'll stick it out.
I just makes me sad to see what i am missing.
I love you guys, miss you..
Love
The Chapel Street Princess.
Xxx
